How do I find the words?

"How do I find the words? When my husband's love that was steadfast in my life for 36 years, suddenly wavers.When what was true for more than half of my life, becomes a lie. When the only one I wanted to be with, no longer wants to be with me. When the only one I love, says he is now in love with someone else . When the only true best friend and partner in my life, no longer gives me the respect of a best friend and partner. How do I find the words describing the pain cutting through my heart? How can I explain the agony of my soul being ripped out of my body? Does my suffering end? Or will it slowly dissolve me into a lifeless waste of nothing?" Angie Meredith